[ After days of endless fighting and repeating to himself that he needs to calm down to the point of making himself feel crazy— ]
U want to fight me Go fuck urself Ur always such an asshole To me and anyone I care about U got us into this mess from the beginning Jules U try to act like a leader but u don't even care because u got what u wanted again Whatever the fuck is was this time Forget I said anything
Like you haven't been a little whiny fucking shit lately, waiting to throw the fact I don't like your boyfriend like you do. And I've been trying to not think it's a weird fucked up betrayal toward Teddie, hanging out with this doppelganger here that you seem so fucking fond of but that doesn't matter, right? only your way of doing shit matters
You're not the one who gets to decide how I fucking deal with shit. you don't want my leadership? fine. fuck you too. you try leading a group through all of this. It's not like you didn't want something out of the deal originally, too. I didn't lead you into that. you did it your fucking self
did it matter that me and felix stayed up all fucking night this week to keep you safe while your fake fucking boyfriend wasn't there? did it matter that we WANTED to protect you? yeah i'm an asshole right yeah, i wanted this whole thing to fuck up
Why is he alone? Why does he have to be isolated so everything doesn't get worse again? He needs Teddie. Theo. Teddie. His mothers, his — his friend Felix, who is definitely just going to be on Julian's side, because there isn't a reality where he'd think he has a right to feel angry. No one's ever going to trust him, no one's ever going to be normal around him because he's never going to be normal, and this sigil has only exacerbated all that. He wonders where Julian's keeping his silver this time, since he's so ready to fight. Forget taking that ring - Dom should have snapped the whole finger off when they were in the forest. ]
I hate u so much I hope u know that I never wanted this stupid sigil It hasn't done shit for me It never worked except to make everything go to hell all the time Glad u got ur wishes though Don't worry about having to stay up all night because of me anymore I'm done
you think I wanted this sigil either? you think I got my wish? you think I want you to feel like shit all the time? YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW?
[Hot heads don't work well together but Julian doesn't know how to back down. He's always had to hold it together, to brace for impact and keep going. He doesn't know how to stop from keeping up his guard; doesn't know how to not push people away because letting them in is too close to showing them how fucked up he is on the inside. Nobody needs to see that. Nobody wants to see that. His failures are his to keep silently in hand.]
[ it takes felix about ten minutes after jules' departure to catch up, previously distracted by... well, it doesn't matter. his sigil is kind of driving him crazy as well (who knew you could get tired of everyone who lays eyes on you wanting to bone down?), he just hasn't put two and two together yet.
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sigil chaos week
It's making everyone go crazy
What the fuck happened with the spell??
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Yea u could fucking say that dude
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Whatever, we gotta think of a solution then, a dampening spell
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U want to fight me
Go fuck urself
Ur always such an asshole
To me and anyone I care about
U got us into this mess from the beginning Jules
U try to act like a leader but u don't even care because u got what u wanted again
Whatever the fuck is was this time
Forget I said anything
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You're not the one who gets to decide how I fucking deal with shit. you don't want my leadership? fine. fuck you too. you try leading a group through all of this. It's not like you didn't want something out of the deal originally, too. I didn't lead you into that. you did it your fucking self
did it matter that me and felix stayed up all fucking night this week to keep you safe while your fake fucking boyfriend wasn't there?
did it matter that we WANTED to protect you?
yeah i'm an asshole right
yeah, i wanted this whole thing to fuck up
cw: reference to hand gore
Why is he alone? Why does he have to be isolated so everything doesn't get worse again? He needs Teddie. Theo. Teddie. His mothers, his — his friend Felix, who is definitely just going to be on Julian's side, because there isn't a reality where he'd think he has a right to feel angry. No one's ever going to trust him, no one's ever going to be normal around him because he's never going to be normal, and this sigil has only exacerbated all that. He wonders where Julian's keeping his silver this time, since he's so ready to fight. Forget taking that ring - Dom should have snapped the whole finger off when they were in the forest. ]
I hate u so much
I hope u know that
I never wanted this stupid sigil
It hasn't done shit for me
It never worked except to make everything go to hell all the time
Glad u got ur wishes though
Don't worry about having to stay up all night because of me anymore
I'm done
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you think I wanted this sigil either?
you think I got my wish?
you think I want you to feel like shit all the time?
YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW?
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don't fucking talk to me anymore
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anyway. ]
whoa hey what the fuck is going on
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can u guys calm the fuck down for a sec
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i didnt do shit 2 u man i just got here
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